It was a rough weekend - actually it was a rough week but the weekend hit us particularly hard.
It's the " firsts " that kill you -
The first morning without her - the first time not having to walk her - feed her - cuddle her - kiss her and if that doesn't do you in - well remembering the " lasts " most certainly does.
I tried to pack up her things ( and she had a lot of things ) but there are so many items you don't think of - you know - like dragging myself into the shower and seeing her shampoo sitting on the ledge - it's hard to wash your hair while choking - or pulling out something from the pantry and seeing a jar of her favorite cookies.
For a small dog she filled up this house and her absence from it makes it seem cold and lonely.
Somewhere in the midst of this and completely unknown to me - I reached the 2 million mark
in " hits " and though I'm not so much in the mood for celebrating - I really do want to celebrate Soda and show my appreciation in some small way to all of you.
Your comments and love touched John and I deeply - I read him every single one of them.
While surfing the net for anything and everything dog related this weekend ( I was obsessed in my grief I tell you - you have no idea ) I came across this amazing site called I HEART DOGS - it's a California based company - and every product you buy goes toward feeding shelter dogs.
When I came across this necklace and saw the paw print in the key I knew I had to have one