The phone rings - and I hear John saying " no problem - no no - it's no problem at all - she'll be with us "
WTH?
John says - That was the mill - they're insisting you come to the meetings on Monday
Suzan says - I can't - I'm going to April's
John says - I think you may have to reschedule that - they're insisting
Suzan says - Well MY customer is insisting I be at her place tomorrow!
John says - But you don't do this everyday - the company still has to function here
Suzan says - I DON'T WANT to go - and what I do is just as important to me as what you do!
John says - LISTEN TO ME CAREFULLY - THIS IS OUR LIVELIHOOD
John says - You're not bothering with the company at all anymore - between blogging - and furniture and custom pieces - AND I DON'T COMPLAIN
and this is where you can tell I'm on the edge of collapse here -
I break down crying
I mean really crying
Crying like I haven't done in a very long time...............
Crying like my world is coming to an end
Crying like if this menopause doesn't go away very very soon I may end up in a loony bin - seriously.
Suzan says - I can't go - gulp - gulp - sniffle - I have committments -
John says - Oh for God Sakes give me April's number...............
How old am I, you ask?
I'm 5 - going on 54.................
BUT - the strangest thing happened after my ahem " episode "
I felt better - over the top better................
Here I was thinking I needed sleep ( which I've now caught up on ) and all I really needed was a good
freaking cry!
When you're menopausing - a good cry is almost as good as a good night's sleep - almost.
And so....................
April's last day will have to wait a day.
but this is sort of how they'll look when I get my butt over there.................
( the chair is mine - very similar to June's but mine is white - I had never screwed the seat in so it was easy to
just prop this on lol )
SORRY APRIL.....................bet you'll be happy to see the last of me at this point :(
have a great Monday all - I'll be the one with the phoney hypocritical smile plastered to my face all day
talking about fabric
pretending I'm interested
oohing and ahhhhing over textures and colors
acting like it's THE fabric that's going to be THE runaway seller this season
when I just don't care about it
anymore
at all............................
I have a surprise that I made for April - ( sorry it has to be a surprise for you too - at least until she's seen it )
so this was especially disappointing...................
P.S. I just reread this - what a train wreck I am LMHO - why am I sharing all this with everyone?
Next I'll be letting skeletons out of the closet - making them all dance for you...................
Oh you'll rue the day you ever came across my blog I'll tell ya!
XXX
Menopause is a BE-YATCH for sure, Susan. But methinks you have to cut John a break every now and then. May both of you live to celebrate another day. I love your blog. You two love each other and carry on...
ReplyDeleteCut JOHN a break???????????? lmho
DeleteBut seriously Jan - yes I do ( I certainly know I could NOT handle him going through menopause so kudos to him for even still being here )
XOX
It's funny Jan - I never realized how much he bugs me until I hit menopause LMHO...............
ReplyDeleteActually I never realized how everything bugged me until I hit menopause - what a coincidence lol
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So not looking forward to menopause ! Roy reckons he'll move out during that stage ... neither of us even knows how long it takes {sometimes I hope it's years and then I can catch some rest ! }
ReplyDeleteWell, that sounds like a jolly good time you two had this weekend. It might not be all menopause though. Sometimes you just don't want to do what you used to do. I know I changed a lot at about that age. In any case, you better stock up on tissues!
ReplyDeleteI'm so not looking forward to menopause.
ReplyDeleteAt 4.1 ( yep, like a new and improved version! Ha!) I struggle with a decent night of sleep - which makes me short tempered, teary and a compulsive target bathrobe wearer!
I also feel I'm going somewhat blind and my memory is ridonkulas!! My best friend joked that I need post its everywhere " I work from home." " I'm a designer and now have a shop." " I didn't eat breakfast" and so on.
A lot to look forward to- yoww!
I'm sorry you are having to go through this.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you are having to go through this.
ReplyDeleteFabric? What kind of fabric? I adore fabric! Must.know.more! Send me with John. My name is the same!! :)
ReplyDeleteYeah, I'm not liking menopause either. A good night's sleep? What is that? I think I actually got more sleep when my kids were babies. Glad the good cry helped you feel better. Sometimes a meltdown is just what we ( I ) need. Hugs,
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I'm warning you Suzan....after a good sleep, and a good cry...you're going to also need a good dessert!! Maybe they are insisting you be at the meeting because they want to talk to you about some of the stuff that's been on your blog lately!!
ReplyDeleteBlame the hormones, the fluctuations....men have mid-life crisis and women have menopause.....it is a symbolic (okay with some crazy realities) time which recognizes change. Often it is a time in our life when we realize that we have only hit the tip of the iceberg in terms of our creativity and expression and there are so many possibilities that it can be overwhelming. Blogs abound with women who are reaching out, connecting and sharing with a new found energy that it is explosive. It appears that there are no bounds or restrictions but as we read further it is apparent that each of us in our own way have limitations be it time, money, creativity or health.....Sharing that recognition keeps it real.
ReplyDeleteI think I have ALL of those limitations lately LMHO!!!
DeleteAnd I don't believe - not for one second - that a man's mid-life crisis is anywhere near as terrible as menopause ( just saying, and that is really only my opinion :)
Seems a new car takes care of their crisis............
XOX
I can so relate Suzan. We watched the movie Les Miserables on the weekend and Anne Hathaway's performace was so mezmerizingly heartbreaking that it just made me weep. I have to say it felt so good though. A good cry every once in a while is a healthy thing I think. The only good thing about menopause is that I can blame it for practically everything. And I do!!! lol.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry you are not at your best. Maybe there is something nutritional to try or some sort of supplement.
ReplyDeleteAww Suzan, hugs to you. I'm glad your full blown cry helped. What is it with men? Why can't they get it?
ReplyDeleteDebbie :)
Oh Debbie - I don't even get it LOL - it this were reversed I think I'd pack my bags and get out of town seriously lol!!!
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Meno sucks, period. I too am hoping it goes away, quietly one night, packs up and leaves. Hugs, I feel like this at time too. I have times when everything just builds and I think I'm going to go crazy and I just start bawling. Going through tissues and cravings like crazy. I tell my girl pals we will all go crazy at least together. Hugs. Patty/BC
ReplyDeleteIsn't it the worse?
DeleteAwful - unexplainable and awful!!!
XOX
I had a good cry Sunday morning. I didn't feel better. Just ridiculous. I'm feeling like Tina (thriftingwithcake)- blind, tired and I can't remember squat. And everyone is pulling on me... okay, this post hit a nerve. Getting a Starbucks Chia Tea NOW. It saves lives. Other peoples. LOL.
ReplyDeleteMaybe that's what I need - a good cry. I'm feeling a bit on the low side lately.
ReplyDeleteI know your stuff at April's is gonna look great - can't wait!
Sometimes though a good cry can be helpful and I am not going through menapause yet....I am sure it is around the corner since I turn 48 tomorrow. Not looking forward to that experience at all but then again what woman is???? It seems women have to go through so much garbage, weight, wrinkles, gray hair, health concerns...need I go on...don't think so we all know the list. I am sure I am not really helping Suzan sorry!!!
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I'm so sorry you're having such a hard time right now. I'm not quite there yet, but it's probably not too far down the road. I've always had pretty bad PMS so meno will either seem like nothing different or all heck will break lose. Maybe a nice Amaretto and diet Coke or 7-Up would help :-) .
ReplyDeleteDiet coke isn't going to cut it Betsy LOL - probably need a horse tranquelizer or something!!!
DeleteI didn't really suffer with PMS - so maybe you get one or the other!
I really feel for women that get both - talk about no respite!
XOX
Just knowing you aren't alone sometimes helps! I've thought I was going crazy, the only sane person in the bunch, dangerous to myself, dangerous to others, dangerous to no one, way too sensitive, way too assertive, my internal thermostat is stuck on hot, I am freezing to death, etc..... I've found a glass of wine (or two) occasionally helps and the love of my man no matter what I put him through is the best treatment of all!!!
ReplyDeleteOne of the awesome things about your blog is your honesty about your life. And we love sharing that life with you, my friend.
ReplyDeleteGlad you're feeling better - a good cry is usually what makes me feel better. I have to hit total bottom to feel better and then the hole seems so much smaller.
Yeah well just let me know when I become too Kate plus 8 ish - please!!!!!!!!!!!!
DeleteThe hole does seem smaller today Heather - what a great way to put it lol
XOX
Hehehe...Suzan's rockin the Mental Pause...with STYLE BABY!!!
ReplyDeleteAnd April will have survived. Glad the cry made you feel better. Now if you can just keep that up for the next 10 years, it oughta really help. I know. I'm such an encouragement, aren't I! Truly, we all love reading your blog and know you're so crazy busy and exhausted and need a break. And we're all just hoping you'll bring out those skeletons! ;-)
ReplyDeleteYou do such beautiful work, Suzan!
So April will have her chairs delivered in May? Is that even legal??? At least, the company is about FABRIC, it could be a tyre company or a boiler company... I guess your smile won't be that fake when you think about this... Do I dare add "have a nice day"...?
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